Some stuffs which I find it really really true. Wanted to put this up on facebook but yeah. I'm a facebook noob. Don't know how to post a note. LOL. Don't laugh at me haha bye people!


Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

ZIXIN

Blog's gonna be real dead. Or already dead. hahaha.


Mid years' over!
Prelims in 8 weeks.
A levels in 100++ days. hahaha right.

Mid years was better than expected. But can't possibly with contented with those grades. Screw GP, I heard 70% of the cohort failed. Not sure whether this information's reliable anot but hahahaha anyway I'm one of them! Not that I'm proud of it, but pretty worried cause I've no idea on how to really tackle this subject. Apart from the standard stuffs. Right.


维多利亚的秘密's so hooky. haahhaha.

ZIXIN

10 cases already.


Took the ambulance to TTS last night, reached there and it was nearly midnight already. Saw kangting and shiwen there too. And the 3 of us are all fine, all fine :D

Waited for like about 5 hours plus and results came out. and cabbed home and slept like a pig. I'll have to really start my engine today.

In the meantime, never stop praying.
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. (Psalm 46:1-3)


There must be a reason for God to let this virus spread within us. But He's still in control of everything. So what's there to worry. If God is fore us, who can be against us?

ZIXIN

and I'm really scared.


2nd H1N1 case. Weng Lok. Just a little boy. God please take care of him.
Oh please give him courage like how he shared during the sharing session.
and Lord let us all pass this test.


Shit. Screw midyears.

ZIXIN

Prayer, oh keep it all in prayer.
"The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective." James 5:16


When I survey the wondrous Cross
on which the prince of glory died.
My richest gain, I count but loss,
and pour contempt on all my pride.

Forbid it Lord, that I should boast.
Save in the death, of Christ my God.
All the vain things that charm me most,
I sacrifice them to His blood.

See from His head, His hands, His feet.
Sorrow and love flow mingled down.
Did e'er such love and sorrow meet,
or thorns compose so rich a crown?

Were the whole realm of nature mine,
that were a present far too small.
Love so amazing, so divine,
demands my soul, my life my all.


This hymn really touched me on the last day when tianmeng led it for sharing, if I remembered correctly. We sang it really slow and every word passed through my mind. and yeah. It's really a great hymn where it's melody fits in so well with the lyrics and it just keeps you thinking about what the writer trying to convey. Memorised the first second and fourth stanza. And the 3rd one soon.

Just 2 points from TY camp.
Do you know the right answers? Or do you live out the right answers?
Look at others, in the eyes of God. I used to be judgemental too.


An opportunity for us to demonstrate Christian love one for another and in this way, display the glory of Christ. Yeap :D
Thanks to all basics and friends who've been concerned bout my health, I'm pretty much better than during the camp already. That my headache has subsided and this flu is no longer as disturbing. Throat tends to get pretty bad when I just wake up but as the day passes it'd be abit better.

Will have to be self-quarantined for the next 7 days. I guess it'll be better though. Do really really pray hard for Serene. And if I didn't hear wrongly, qiai's still down with high fever and will be going down to the hospital for a checkup. Yuhan's fever and headache had subsided but just in case will be checking up too. Do really really pray for them and the other basics who've been unwell. I guess this is what we can really do for them at this point of time.

ZIXIN

Back from retreat, abit, didn't want it to end. But yeah. Didn't really get to play alot with them actually but it's worth it. hahaha.

MY HAVAIANAS'S STOLEN. Beekian's too. On last day morning. Abit cause the previous nights keep got people outside so nobody steal. Then last night everybody in girls dorm, then shiattttt. Next morning wake up, gone. Gone. All slippers outside all black black one. Where's my xiao hong! ): Just bought an exact same pair, but no feel ): sigh. I wore it for like a year already! Big sigh. Need to take another year to develop feelings ):

Jialat I don't have enough time for revision! There's still TY Camp next week. Hahaha Zi Xin you're gone really gone LOL.


Today's a very important day.

ZIXIN

Hey I'm back here to blog again.

Just came back from SYCO concert. Okay not really. That was already like 6 hours ago. Time check: 5.52am. Hahaha amazing that I'm not asleep yet right. Yeap, went for SYCO concert. Sat next to Mr Low hahaha damn good seat. Lol. Concert was good! Enjoying. I suppose, it's one of the better SYCO concerts since the past I should say. I like the last songgggg my tian. The 1st movement front part. Super nice oh mannnnn HAHA. Chui da's first piece was pretty good too :D Not forgetting Yikhang's concerto! Really enjoyable :D

Feeling's different, definitely. Well I didn't really, have the urge to like. "I wanna join them back on stage!" kinda feeling. Like yeah y'know. But I felt, comfortable, just sitting at the audience seat, appreciating what they've practiced for the past whole year. SYCO concerts never fail to have really touching repetoirs I must say. Really.

Joining them back next year? I've no idea actually. No intention currently actually. Probably it's time for me to focus on other commitments. Like laoshi mentioned bout joining CO in University. Whah I think I'll cry la. No no I'm very very sick of it already really. It takes quite a bit of time for one to settle down in an orchestra, to be able to play comfortably together with the others. So yeah, don't wanna focus too much on orchestral anymore in the future. Probably will just stay in MCO and just, yeah. Play music.


Abit I wanted to share quite abit about my experiences with MCO but I'm going to K.O. already. I slept only 3 hours yesterday! haha. Yeah. Wrote long long birthday note, abit I think very mushy but it's all true really. *I see a grasshopper now! haha*


"MCO's not just a place for us to play music, it's a place where true friendship, love, and peace comes together."

ZIXIN

I'm here to blog! YAY I'M HERE TO BLOGGGGG! :D :D

Guess where am I now!



I'M HAVING MCO RETREAT SUPER HIGH HAHAHA SUPER HIGH REALLY! It's uber chio here :D

Tomorrow's MCO's birthday! Yay we're finally 5 years old!

Okay got abit of stuffs to blog actually. Just, didn't have a chance to properly blog so keep delaying till now! Abit we slacking now. Nothing much to do. The whole Pasir Ris Holiday Camp is ours WOOOOO! and we have like 40 beds, decent beds and a super cool hall with blasting speakers and we can high all night and there's a basketball court on our own (MELVIN is disturbing now argh *Melvin:NOOOOOO! * okay haha and a big big big big big kitchen! And guess what. I'm in charge of F&B! hahahaha surprising right! LOL.

Kayyyyy blog bout AJCO. Got lotsa people to thank actually. But the mood almost gone already. But ya, still must thank.

Concerto was pretty a success I should say. I heard the recording at least like 20 times haha abit crazy but ya. Recording sounded better than expected actually. :D Gonna let laoshi hear and see what he say. But anyway.
Gotta thank:

1. Huang Laoshi
for giving me this chance and all the help in the musical stuffs despite his arm/back injury. For the past whole year, I've really learnt alot from him, be it is it musical expression or staging experience. That few minutes of silence, do help :D and really thanks for allowing everything to flow smoothly, especially when we've rather differ-ing music expressions haha. Abit during actual performance our mo qi was one of the best shots ahaha.

2. AJCO
for coming down for all the practices throughout the whole week despite it's already after competition. Abit if is me I'll feel very sian diao cause like everyone's expecting a real break after SYF and in the end still have a whole week of intensive! I'm really sorry I know this song have created lotsa problems and difficulties. Very sorry for all the scoldings and naggings from teachers and everyone! I'm really really thankful and appreciate all the hardwork and effort put in despite the crazy workload you guys have to catch up with.

3. AJCO Teachers in Charge
for giving me ample opportunities and encouragement throughout, Ms Chua. And being so, motherly. I've much to say for her actually but don't know how to express it. And Mr Goh! haha thanksss I know you'll see this I guess! For always influencing others with your so... Friendly smile haha. And always willing to lend students a helping hand whenever you can.

4. AJCO Plucking Section
Sorry I know I've neglected you guys alot especially during concert period and always pon sectional meals and lazy to organize outings for you guys. But you guys have been awesome throughout this whole period really :D make my life so much so much easier! even liuyan LS's v happy with you guys :D Thanks really, thanks so so so much. Without you guys practices would have been really lifeless. I'm sorry to spread the glutton habit to you guys but HAHA I'm no longer a glutton anymore LOL. Thanks, for all the memories! Tanbo 09, you guys must zheng qi kay! I believe you guys will be great :D


*SORRY FOR THE INTERUPTION*
IT'S OFFICIALLY 00.00AM NOW.
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MCO! YAY MCO'S 5 YEARS OLD ALREADY! :D
Shall post my happy birthday MCO post at a later time :D
I'll try to do it on her birthday! haha


back.

5. DTO.
Special friend! I've sexaye babe with me at chalet now :D Thanks, for all the help during those few days. Gonna cya soon anyway but haha thanks for the yet-to-be-soup restaurant treat! Think we need lotsa lotsa catching up. But sorraye, I've been really busy, all along I know :S Special friend, always special friend, always aaa batt. Good food plus lotsa catching up after As right. Must settle your uni stuffs soon!

6. Stella Tannnnn
Hahaha if I remembered your surname correctly. Hey, thanks for your ruan! Ahh I miss the sound man my ruan sounds really really horrible nowww man. Hahaa. Thanks, stella! I know you've helped me alot behind my back thanks. Plus all the little advices here and there to get the yunnan feel right :D

7. Friends who are always there for me.
You know I can't do without you guys. Love you.

8. Minhui, Junhe and Junyuan
Thanks for specially coming down to support. Thanks for the flowers too :D

9. Caishi, Meiyi, Janice, Navin, Jiahong, Winghay, Edwin, SYCO friends, AJCO and family, especially my beloved ah ma!
For all the pretty flowers :D I took peektures of it! But it's not with me now so can't blog bout it. Thanks! Abit I tell ah ma I want her to send me the bouquet. Unexpectly she really did but I didn't see! ): and the lights were dimmed when she reached. I'm really really sorraye! ):

10. Friends who came to support, and everyone who've helped me in one way or another.

11. Laoshi! I'll never forget you :D

12. Thanks, God. :D i know you'll never leave me :D


That's about it :D

Guess what. I saw teegongong few days back! Still as loud and mlwfd and, so her. Hahaha.


Freelance performer? Hahaha probably. Just, I'm starting to feel very, comfortable on stage. Like never before. I don't know how to explain this. But yeah, it's very, me, that day.

I'm really really glad to be here with all MCO peeps. Love them to the max really. I don't know why but even when we aren't doing much I'm still v v happy whenever I'm with them :D I miss last year. I miss ikea trip, very very badly. I miss practices. I miss so much stuffs with them! I miss meetings. I miss lion intensive practices. I miss concert preparation. I miss all our songs. I miss ABBA time! I miss all the stupid things we've done. I miss. Everything bout them.

I miss mummy too! She've been away for more than a week already! :/ it's weird without hearing her to nag me to go home early.

Thanks dad for fetching me today :D

Be a thankful child, :D
and I thank God for what I have right now.

ZIXIN

and laoshi's not going.
and retreat's cancelled.

In a verge of breaking down, spiritual low, I can't help it, despite all the constant prayers 'oh please carry me through this'. Basics, please please pray for me!

I'm really drained, or even much more than that. Hectic's no longer enough to describe my current status. Busy is a state of confusion. Hmm.

This week's kind of like, wooosh! Preparation for concert's enough to kill, and there's Chem CT in a few hours' time. (yes haha I woke up early, but apparently last minute work can't bring me far especially when there's CE, IE and the whole of organic chem) Yeap.

I'm feeling very tensed up. Throughout the whole week. Even when I'm asleep. Even in my dreams! This is getting ridiculous but ya. I've never been so occupied, that I really don't have a time for myself, and a real quiet time alone with God. Even during quiet times I find my mind strolling away to worry about what I shouldn't be, no matter how hard I try.

Have been practising quite alot for yunnan, not too bad but things just don't work out when I'm with the orchestra. Still figuring the feeling out I suppose, hopefully I can get it done soon.

Alright I was rather disappointed, but yeah it's inevitable. Until yesterday when I received "not coming thanks", my heart dropped. Afterall, he's my teacher. The one who brought me to where I am today. Despite the fact that I'll freak out even more if he's at the audience seat, but I'd really rather him to be there. Well, I think he can't help it though, probably just let him listen to the recording and, ya.

Be it is this my concerto or not, I'm part of AJCO too. I'm really glad that attendance's pretty good despite the really packed schedule, FYI we prac-ed on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday's concert. So ya practically everyday except Thursday. I'm really gladful that you guys are willing to at least, make an effort to come despite having lots of work to chatch up. Thanks, alot. and jiayou, you can do it! & I can do it too.

ZIXIN

CCA has yet to tone down much, apart from the emotional-intensiveness. College day and concert and exco. Concert will be down really soon. And college day falls the week after. I don't know how am I supposed to feel now, anxious? worried? dreading?

I can't wait to get over it and get to the other phase of my life. But yet I believe we still need ample time to learn this song. Learn. :/ I'd really hope concerto won't be a disaster, afterall this may just be my one and only concerto of my entire life. Haven't been ruanning intensively either, there's just too much of miscellaneous work to do. Orchestra too. Prob cause huangls's busy with tj's concert. But I can't help worrying when there's only 1 week, 1 week or even lesser than that to prac for yunnan. Doesn't sound really possible to make it but must have to make it. haha probably things will really go fine.

Alright serious work now. Bye! :D

ZIXIN

Treasure, everyone around you. Everyone.

ZIXIN

Vesak day! :D Finally, a break. But again I slept only like, 7hours? Argh but I think I'm going to sleep again later.

Tanbo self-declared qing gong yan last night! Not bad not bad, we went ding tai fong! Abit sian diao, supposedly had college day tech run from 4.30 to 6. And it was happily drag till 8? Super sian diao. In the end the rest headed off, leaving the few of us doing unnecessary stuffs in school. Oh but forget it we chionged down after prac and WOO FOOOOD! Hahaha it was the best attendance meal! 23/27! With 2 valid reasons (stella fever & caishi rashes) and the 2 sisters which I've no idea why. But anyway! Food was pretty good :D and it wasn't as expensive as I expected actually, I thought it'd be like, $20 odd. But nah. Pretty cheap for that standard of food. So yeah lucky me! :D

Meeting joey later to get her gown! haha if you see this joey, thanks alot alot! I hope I can fit in :S

Should I go ECP? should go and exercise. Super long never get in touch with sun. eh, abit. Haha. But lazy la, plus... haha. So maybe just meeting them for movie later if they're heading for one. Will have more activities coming up! I suppose! RETREAT RETREAT RETREAT :D


replies to tags:

Benben: thanks! long time no see!

Debbie: eh... none! Hahaha I don't literally, like to drink red bull, but things are gonna be fine really soon when I'm back I hope! haha!

Soocheng: thanks you too! are your exams over?

Chengxi: HAHAHA. copyright aye.

John: oh YA. Yakult didn't appear in my mind at that point of time but yes it's still one of my favs! Green apple yakult! haha

Qing ru: 5! haha

tiong: ? haha

Yvonne: thanksss see you soon! :D

Junda: YESSSSSS! BOUGHT WITH OUR BLOOD AND SWEAT! (must be careful later mr Goh stalk hahahahahahahaha)

Minhui: I also hope yunnan 123! But I cmi, CO also no time to prac! Yunnan 1 like abit... eh. ya I think you know I know haha. I not very sure leh...

Chengxi: THANKS! I like your description actually, pet of ******************** haha. oh anyway band got honours too!

Honggie: haha not because of you but can treat bbt :D

Debbie: YES. THAT MOMENT WAS REALLY FLOODED WITH EMOTIONS HAHA.

Ivy: Thanks :D




Okay I realise, I have readers. Haha.

ZIXIN

Alright I'm here to blog whatever I can. hahah left with like 10 mins. Surprisingly I woke up very early at like, 5.30 today! I don't know why I just woke up and didn't feel like going back to sleep. Thought I'll be like a pig today but not haha.

AJCO CLINCHED HER 1ST GOLD WITH HONOURS!
It was all worth it. Thank God.

GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS GOLD WITH HONOURS!

Never have I ever thought/even dreamt that we'd achieve this target, but yes we did it! Never did I expect myself to cry when I heard the results either. If you know me well enough, I guess you know why. Haha. But seriously this feeling is like, you really wanna hug someone and scream out loud and haha yeah I was super unglam nevermind.

DIANATOH IS TREATING SOUP RESTAURANT! WOOOO!
Super shiok haha not everyone but a few lucky us :D

Saw laoshi! Super happy haha on stage when we had to face the audience I smiled super widely at him! haha and he waved heeeee.

But yeah, yesterday was one of our best shots. And definitely the best shot ever we had on stage. Feeling's really scary, cause we can always do well in CO room but on stage everyone's just v tense, and the music becomes... So unnatural. But yesterday wasn't! I felt really relieved, especially after the cello&xylophone's "BONG" at the end of san yue tian. Haha.

Wanna hear more comments on AJCO's performance yesterday! Honest comments.

Okay. Gotta thank my tanbo! Although none of them will see it here but guess I'll get the ruanners to see this haha. You guys were awesome, be it on stage or in CO room. Hahhaha gluttonsssss! Thanks for being cooperative, not giving attendance problems, not giving me collection of money problems, especially the time when we had to fork out our own money to rehearse the 2nd time at SCH. Applauses for the teachers too, they actually forked out money, their own money too!

I'm specially proud of my ruanners especially the 5 JC2s, who had no experience at all.
This is specially dedicated to:

Wendy Chiam
Ho Mei Yi
Lee Shi Yuan
Xie Hua Zhen
Li Cai Shi

I'm very very very very proud of you guys, for all your perseverance and diligence all these while. I know it's really tough to pick up in just a year, to get all the proper basics right and then rushing to learn songs for little performances here and there. Ultimately, you guys have done yourself proud yesterday, and you've already proven yourself capable. We've reached our final destination, though there's still concert but afterall, SYF's our main goal and yes, we did it. :D

I've much more to say, but I gotta rush for school now already. Shall elaborate more on... aha don't tell you.

The end!


我没有对不起弹拨乐。

ZIXIN

Dead bored.

Bored so bored really bored.

Bro's hogging onto TV watching starsports it's freaking me out already. I've seriously nothing to do now wanna go out but not the right time wanna sleep but I just ate and I wanna watch TV and 9.30 super hot wanna scream. hahah slap me.

ZIXIN

Big failure I am.

Was randomly passing by blogs, got to know about used-to-be-so-close-friends, realised so much has happened in the past few months and I'm just a failure. Only concerned about life around me, always moaning about this and that. Meet ups. Call up friends for meet ups. Yes.

and how am I suppose to go about doing that with a super not updated contact list with half of my previous contacts gone.

Step back, look at the whole picture. I'm not in the worst situation, actually. Take a deep breath, your life rocks mannnn! hahaha.

SYF's in just 3 days. I'm feeling glad, I suppose. We finally got out of our misery on Thursday. And that shot was really good. Hopefully the same thing on 6th May. Much to say to Tanbos, apologies and gratitude. Shall leave it to POP. Can't stand hypocrites.

Having concerto on 24th May! Hahaha who wants to go! Abit sad la, it's cultural concert, makes it even more difficult to sell tickets when we're only performing 2 songs and of which one's yunnan! Abit sian, should have learnt yunnan 3 earlier, I don't know how to describe my feelings towards yunann 1, I'm not sick of it or something. Haiya idk. the end.

Ya. so if you happen to see this and wanna watch tell me okay :D $18 at RP. 2pm/7pm.

I'm super not prepared. But it's okay I think. Can prac during CO practices after competition and yay Stella let me use her ruannn :D my ruan sounds super awful and looks super black trust me I think laoshi's gonna be super sad when he sees my ruan haha. oh back to concerto. I need gown. and AJCO's costume's colour's super hard to match. Gonna faint. Text me if you have lobangs on where to loan gowns!

oh and finally I passed laoshi's gift to eevian and it's now with laoshi. Phew.

ZIXIN